nothing seems like it is in the right place, but it all keeps on trucking.

did one of the hardest things in the world today.

looked someone in the eyes, that i had so much anger for, hugged them, and said i was sorry.

fun night with.

me- d
nick- d
derek- d
vitaly- s
lacey- s
brooke- d
david- d, h
brandon- d, h
kirk- d
davison- d,h
brad- d, t
dustin- d

KEY

d = drunk
s = sober
h = high
t = throwing up

i cried a year ago this very day.

i lost one of my biggest child hood idols.



im not joking, i cried.

i miss and love you Steve "crocodile hunter" Irwin.

sunday. i suppose

isd. ints. ilbav. lig. ih.



good weekend ahead. another weekend with brandon paul! and vitaly! shredin mesa!

what i would do if i didnt have the friends i did.

phfd + brandon and vitaly!

love.

it still has some bugs to be worked out. it is the beer diet. skip a meal drink a beer! im well on my way to those rock hard abs! FUCK SLIM FAST. this should be called slim quicker! trust me. i totally am right on this one it is so filling. do this with me. nick sargent is well on his way with me. he is looking good.

a sober night for me, but for everyone else i think you can judge that one...


"these are comments from everyone that night and yet i didnt even quote myself"



"take it in the ass you slut"

"im trying to get this guitar"

"you smell very nice"

"it smells like butt hole"

"yo i need a ciggy"

"i need to see your boobies"

"let me see your naked"

"can i take you to the bathroom"

"what did you get"

"lets take off our shirts"

"what the fuck did you say"

"why the fuck arent you naked, get out of my way im naked as fuck"

"who's naked"

"where are the girls"

"im so thirsty"

"i need to go peepee, wait where the fuck are the girls"

"alright everybody, this song is called i wanna see your titties"

"take the bra off, off girl, the first time i met you i saw your nipple because it was cold outside, i wanna see your titties, i wanna see some nipples, they seem cold i dont wanna see din din plates"

"brandon is in phfd now"

"yo yall need to chill the fuck out."

"jim has a huge cock. hes got that three foot cock."

"im about to dookie my pants"

"im taking the guitar before some one breaks it"

"shit cops"

"DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAEEEEEEEMMMMM"

"make out with jim"

"if you have sex call me before because i wanna watch, im trying to jerk it"

"yo yo yo yo chill out, i gotta work tomorrow"

"im def ready for everyone to go"

"yo you the dd, we gotta get the fuck outta here"

"wheres my pants"

"you staying here"

"this was lame, that girl never showed us her titties. lets kill her. tie her up lets kill her."

"this is the most fucked up ive ever been, im think im scared."

"whoa whoa whoa wheres my money"

"63 dollars"

"slap her in the face a couple of times for me because she didnt show me her tits"

"put your shit on the table"

"thats all i have take it take it"

"i didnt take shit"

"no no shhh shhh, chill out"

"i was saving it for a car"

"i dont no what to believe"

"chill out, im your friend"

"my whole body is numb, i hope you type that im not going to remember that in the morning"

"dont you wish you had a camera for that one to have that"

"this is seriously the most fucked up ive ever been, i almost want it to end"

"at least they got it back"

"you got to puke this where you go, the door is open"

"im going to sleep"

fuck, life is so much shit. i hate this shit. i have nothing, but i have wicked ass friends. im so fucking crazy hahaahahahahaahahahahahahahhahahahaha what the fuck is wrong with me. im stupid as shit.

if you're not here right fucking now in my eyes, then you're shit to me.

everything i have in my life that was going good has been taking away.

job,
friends,
girl,
life is shit now.

i have nothing and no where to go.

i dont no what im going to do.

im tired of living this way.

getting my life together, got a new job.
derek is moving in.
opened a new bank account.
to put all my money in.

i miss it alot.

my life sucks but im looking up. i miss captain so much. i need my little boy.

shoot me in the fuckin head.

life sucks.

im over it

work.

im a working man.

STARTING TO LOOK UP!!!

i need a cigar!

fuck.

know the situation.

mom's a "BEFORE COLA" freak.

and im outta here!

perfect.

well i have an amazing girlfriend ashlee marie. she is seriously perfect. i talk about her alot. i no but it is for the sheer fact that she makes me smile every minute that i am with her. and most of the time that i have to spend away for her. she is everything i could ask for in a girlfriend and a little bit more. it is unbelieveable that this girl has me on the edge of my seat all the time. and not saying it is a bad thing at all i mean it in a good way. the words that come out of her mouth have me speechless most of the time. and all the other words has me searching for her kiss. she means the world to me. she likes me for who i am. and i like her because she is my everything. i even looked up the word everything. to make sure that i was right. and by golly was i. she does everything and anything to make me happy. and i try my best to do the same. i try to live up to her. she is the most adorable thing ever.







am i wrong?

well other than that.

i think my friends feel as if im drifting away from them. like vitaly, brandon and wick. i try my best with what i got. i dont got a house phone. cell phone. internet. car. nothing. its hard for me to be like HEY! LETS HANG OUT... when there is no way of doing it. i dont no. dont think im bitching because i dont have money and nor does my family. IM HAPPIER THAN EVER.

i do miss you guys...